Now I'm not poking fun of anyone but I must admit I am a bit upset at the whole "bi craze" going on. I would like to think that more women are coming out as Bi because they are truly more comfortable with themselves and the world is more open. But sadly, I think a lot of us no this is not true. Now me, I always knew I had a feeling for girls. Even as a Little girl I used to be so fascinated with women's breasts and I would see pictures of them in magazines and think just how beautiful they were.
I didn't really start liking guys until middle school but I always still had strong feelings for girls too. I can still remember me and my friend Niki reading things like Cosmo girl and her obsessing over guys with abs and pecs or whatever they're called and I would just nod and say yea he's cute. But secretly I would be checking out the girl IN the picture with the guy lol. I really thought I was a lesbian but then I would see certain guys that would just make me melt. (mostly punk and goth boys) I later found out I wasn't weird, i just have different tastes in men than a lot of women seem to, BI or straight lol.
I never knew if this was something I should tell my family, since they were catholic and though they aren't very narrow minded when it comes to their own family they can be. It's one of those "it's okay for other but not MY daughter" kind of situation. And since I was raised by my grandparents it was even double nerve wracking. But one day I was talking to a guy Friend online saying how I was bi and didn't know how to tell my family and of course my grandmother HAD to come up behind me at this very moment (see parents this is why you shouldn't invade your child's privacy by sneaking up behind them and reading what they are saying. Sometimes they just have things they aren't ready to tell you) and she literally shoved me off the chair and told me go to my room and proceeded to read the entire IM.
The next day she told me I was sick and disgusting and was just going through a phase. After arguing for a long time it was never brought up again and she presumably thinks I'm straight. Just as well I guess since I did end up falling in love with a wonderful guy, who of course she hates but oh well.
Just because I'm BIsexual and not HOMOsexual doesn't mean that I don't understand what it like. I know what it's like to be called sick, and disgusting, and sinful. I know what it's like to be made fun of in school by people asking me if I'm a dyke. Or telling me i;m only bisexual because I'm confused as to what I want and don't know any better.
I was VERY lucky that the few friends I had weren't bothered by it because I know there are many people who have lost friends just for being who they are. Of course in school I never really told anyone myself but things like this tend to get around one way or the other.
I love girls and I love guys. But I fell in love with a man. It doesn't make me any less bisexual. I'm not automatically straight because I was married to a man just like a gay man is not automatically straight because he's married to a woman. Bisexuals deserve to be respected just like everyone else. I'm tired of people only referring to bisexuality when talking about drunk pre-teen girls playing truth or dare.
Because Honestly, us bisexuals get more crap than anyone in my opinion, you just didn't hear about it. Because straights tell us we are confused and to "pick a side" and gays tell us we aren't like them because we still like the opposite sex. I think we should just all stand together as one, stand together as human beings and just love each other no matter. Gay, Straight, or Bi. Man OR Woman. Stop being hypocrites and saying it's okay for women to be lesbian or bi but not men. Where does anyone have that right? Men can love whoever the hell they want just like women. So stop hating and stop living in fear and just be proud of you are, today, at this very moment and know that everything will always work out in the end.